TWENTY-TWO/ arm insecurities

These pictures were taken many months ago when the weather was still sunny, my hair wasn't grown out and when I had both of my Toms (the left once has since been lost). I'm looking back on these photos and as ridiculous as this sounds, I never blogged them because of my arms.

I have fat arms. I have fat everything else too, and I've been okay with that for pretty much my entire life. I even learned at an early age to embrace my size but I can never remember a time where I was comfortable with my arms. And much like other people who hate their arms, I used to wear long sleeves and sometimes even thick hoodies in the summer to hide my arms. A couple of years ago I realized how silly that was, an extra layer of clothing isn't going to fool anybody so why suffer in 30 degree weather while wearing it? Looking back, I have no idea why I was so ashamed to post these pictures. I lived in this vest the entire summer and I even wore it in this post. I wear sleeveless or short sleeved shirts all the time, so why was I so afraid to have another actual picture documenting it? That is totally uncharacteristic of me, but here we are. Although I'm aware that this insecurity will probably always be present in my life, I'm going to try and make it a point to never let it hold me back again. They are definitely not my favourite features, I'm sure they never will be, but they're mine and I can't keep hiding from them..

TOP&VEST/ Forever 21 SKIRT/ Gifted SHOES/ Toms
SCARF/ H&M ACCESSORIES/ Various
WATCH/ Michael Kors

All pictures were taken by Laura Kidd and Michael Tundo.
* I did call myself 'fat' in this post but I don't see that as a negative term, nor did I use it or post this post so people can message me and tell me how ~skinny~ I actually am. I'm not skinny, I never will be, and I'm fully aware of that and I truly am happy with myself. I did this post because I wanted to get over my fear of my arms, if that makes any sense. A lot of times I'm overly confident as well and this is to to also prove that I too am insecure some of the time. The embarrassment I have towards my arms is something I'm constantly working on and I hope this post will give me confident to go sleeveless in more posts in the future.

FOURTEEN/ leopard pants

On any given day you will likely find me wearing allblackeverything with a leopard print statement. I'm not sure why, but it's what I feel the most comfortable in. From bras, to shoes, to pants, to tops, if it comes in an animal print I probably own it. Even my hair straightener has a zebra pattern. Right now these leggings are my everything and when I pair it with my newly made black denim vest and Dr. Martens shoes I feel like a complete badass. 

VEST/ American Apparel (used to be a jacket) TOP/ Forever 21 LEGGINGS/ Forever 21+

SHOES/ Dr. Martens BAG/ Gifted ACCESSORIES/ Various WATCH/ DKNY

All pictures were taken by Michael Tundo and Laura Kidd.

TEN/ floral maxi dress

I have been living in this dress for the last couple of weeks. I'm pretty sure my friends, family AND coworkers are tired of seeing it... but I reaaaallly don't care! I can swear to you, right now, that I'm going to live in maxis this summer. Maxi dresses and skirts are just about the most comfortable pieces of clothing imaginable; they are just the easiest thing in the world to throw on as well, and they always look flawless. I can't remember the last time I was -this- excited over an article of clothing. 

DRESS/ New Look VEST/ Forever 21 ACCESSORIES/ Various 

BELT/ New Look SHOES/ Sperry's PURSE/ Cooperative (from Rikochet Resale)

All photos were taken by Laura Kidd.